It hurts

Why I never have any luck with relationship? Just when I thought I have found the one.... She slip through my grasp again. 

I'm feeling miserable as miserable it can be.

there can be no true despair without hope

Without it, Life is dull
With it, it could shred your life into pieces

I gotta to learn to live life without hope and expectations
This way I'll be happier maybe
Learn to be happy for myself and not anyone else except my family
Then I'll not let others dictate my happiness again

Trust

I remember mr kadir once told me. You're the nicest guy I have ever encountered. Learn to trust the right person because you're too nice to say no. Trust the right person and you'll lead a good life 

I have never felt so strong about this statement. Looking back, I have never learned from my past mistakes. 

From a guy who have all the friends in the world now I have nothing. I lost confidence in myself. I felt small!

Each time I choose to give up a part of me. I shouldn't have done it. I'll be more careful. 

Feeling down and out. Maybe a trip to Genting by myself will be a good idea after all. Let's do some soul searching and I'll have my books and my coffee to accompany me. 

God is not done with me yet. I'll accept the challenges ahead. I'll be truthful and honest with my life because that's who I am and I'll always be. 

For I is the the path to righteous. I fear not my judgement as I never had any malicious intent before. 

Good things to those who wait

Everything falling into place. Soon everything will be back to normal. Finally got the offer from the insurance co. Decent amount, should be able to cover most of it. 

i am happy to see you happy...

it's like a taunt! every post every word
you got played son! you got played bad!
now you got nothing, you looked just like a fool

so much for "you know that it's hard for me to go out with another guy after this right?"
wow! that's just uttered bullshit!
after all the efforts, money, time sigh!
Karma is a bitch! maybe i deserved it
i never have any regret in life but if there's one, this could be it.
but wait...shouldn't waste my only regret for this.
i should save it for something else

anyways just my rantings out of frustrations since i got no one to talk to
and yes i don't bitch about you,
i shouldn't react this way actually but just venting out my frustrations

well as long as you're happy! and i have to start doing happy things for me too!

adios muchacha!

next post must be a positive one! wooooo sahhhhhh!

Loneliness

I just realized I got no friends left. 

Lonely!!

Why?

Why would you say things to hurt me when it's all over?

Blaming is always the easier way off

Have you imagined the grief and the hurt u caused me?

I sucked it all in and moved on

What I learnt?

Be happy for no reason if you have a reason to be happy then beware as the reason could be taken away from you and you gonna have a bad time

I lost so much over the years just because I thought It was worthwhile 

Don't take away that one last memory from me!!

Let me have closure and move on