I am never proud of my past. i was naive and i wasted loads of time but i'm making up to it. to be a better man. i been thru shite too. like i always said " you'll have to suffer the consequences of your own doing. i know i gotta pay my dues and it's hard! especially for someone who past his peak and seeing his mates doing well in whatever they are doing.
i can't change my past and i won't. i learned a lot from it and i'm glad it hit me now than hitting me in my forties. i'm a very negative person and hope one day i'll see silver lining in everything i faces as "after the darkest hour, the sun will shine again" and it is ever so bright!!
