so close

You`re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I`m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you`re beside me and look how far we`ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We`re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let`s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

why

i had the longest night in my life
every now and then, i looked at the phone
hoping it would ring, my mind was flying everywhere
i couldn't sleep, sit, eat, drink or anything
the heartache is unbearable
if there's anything that i can do to reverse this
oh god please let me know!!
i would do anything

i never thought i could be sooo in love with someone

i misses you so badly!

........

looked at my entries again
i guess it beats the purpose of this blog without her
i think i cried almost the whole night
and i'm FUCKING tearing up in office like a sissy!
never ever i had felt this way before
i did what i could
i learned

it was almost a perfect fairytale story
it started with all the right reasons
it ended with all the wrong ones

my mind is blank and i'm restless

"give me strength to go thru this"
"to love and not to hate, for once we were so much in love"
"let me have the courage to love again"

OBITUARY

PANDA
30.9.08 - 13.8.09

Never borned, Never Died,
visited this earth on a beautiful journey called life

a fiery start

not gonna care anymore
my motivation will only be money
that should have been my motivation from day one
no more artistic fancy stuff
anyway u need money to be an artist
fuck u all and i'm coming to get your money

take my car if you will
nothing will ever stop me

feeder

i wonder if i gave too much
i'm just a facilitator
doesn't matter how i feel and what i want anymore

over the rainbow by judy garland

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

always be my be

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby


I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no



You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time


You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
You will always be my baby