my latest obsession

after 3 long years

back in the TVC business yo! this time as a consultant for a proton CNY TVC....concept fucking good!! watch out for it guys

0930

as much as i want it to go, it still lingers

it's 3am

damn it ! it's 3.00am and i'm still awake...been having issues with my sleep
while rummaging thru my stuff in the room, i found loads of stuff from the past
and guess what Mr. Jay.c? i found the sticker pic we took in sg wang ...wakakakaka

It's amazing how fast time passes by, i still remember those days when we were young and restless...how a random act of stupidity brings out a sudden burst of laughter from everyone (e.g John banging his head on the wall, Billy breakdancing, ...etc)..haha

and now we're all grown up but still as childish as we were used to be...

Summer in Madrid, Eindhoven, Bordeoux, Munich and Slovakia?

one signature away from my dream...please please!!! SIGN IT!

keeping my fingers crossed

kemeja t and 2010

I've been spending a lot of time with family and old friends lately..in fact i spent my new year eve at home. Many friends were rather surprised that I rejected their invitations to their parties (btw, thank you all so so much for your invitations)

I, myself was kinda surprised by my decision to stay home. Surprisingly, i didn't felt pathetic at all, in fact I had a great night! Guess i just needed some time on my own to ponder upon things that I've done in 2009.

2009 was rough! I didn't enjoyed it a bit! i'm really glad it ended and looking forward to new challenges in 2010. I kinda drifted around for the whole of 2009 with no accomplishments whatsoever!

What have i learned from 2009? ....."OBSESSION is a deadly game!"

I was too obsessed with my new found love and I've neglected everything. I just wanted to love her and gave her everything. Slowly, obsession turned me into someone different. All that i could think off..was her. I thought i found my soulmate. I wouldn't put the blame as me myself have to suffer the consequences of my own doings. Things went on just fine till i lost my job.

I landed myself in loads of debts with no stable income. I was depressed everyday wei! I had my first taste of poverty...well ok ok poverty might be too strong of a word but still...I was as broke as BROKE can be! i didn't even have money to eat!!! i was being really immature and lost all senses of directions.

When i thought things were getting better when i got myself a job in the real estate industry. She left me! i was devastated and it took me like FOREVER to get over her. In fact i stil think of her once in a while. It was even worse when all your mate is around you! i didn't have anyone to turn to at that time! It was really really hard....anyway i managed to pull thru and get on with life!

i learned a great deal out of this mess. Too much of something will do you no good! it changes you. It will alter your perceptions and your state of mind. You loses control. I was not myself then.

Life is all about balance..and standing firm on your principles!

I hope 2010 will be a great one and things are already looking kinda handsome!

an opportunity to fulfill my dream.......

of ciggies and coffee

it's been 3 months now
coming back to astro breathed a new life into me
life is good now with a lil hint of love blossoming thru
gonna take it slow this time and will not make any hasty decisions
i will put my heart and soul in my career and make my mark again
now i have a great show under my belt and just finished the pilot recording
and i have the chance of fulfilling my life long dream of a documentary project in madrid next year
2010 will be a great year!!

looking back...i realized how foolish i was
i was a complete idiot! losing my perspectives anyway...
what doesn't kill you, make u stronger
i'm more focused and matured now
i'm enjoying life

I would like to thank:

*in no specific order!
Mum, my 1st bro, jay.c, KY, ah small girl, Ms. Moon Kitty, ah small girl, Fat Ting, kw, jackie, karen, and tkw

for being supportive during my darkest hours