it is ever so bright

I am never proud of my past. i was naive and i wasted loads of time but i'm making up to it. to be a better man. i been thru shite too. like i always said " you'll have to suffer the consequences of your own doing. i know i gotta pay my dues and it's hard! especially for someone who past his peak and seeing his mates doing well in whatever they are doing. 

i can't change my past and i won't. i learned a lot from it and i'm glad it hit me now than hitting me in my forties. i'm a very negative person and hope one day i'll see silver lining in everything i faces as "after the darkest hour, the sun will shine again" and it is ever so bright!! 

Vanity Fair

Sitting here with me mom just checking out ppl around me. I'm so glad that I'm born this way. Not that to say I'm good looking or what but there are quite a lot of weird looking ppl out there. Damn! They look weird and not only they look weird they act like one too.....scary shite!

City of Glass

The beauty of the glass city reflected on the shiny surface of man's glory. All pleasing to the eyes but a hollow tin inside.

I, me and myself

Sigh! Nvm la. I've decided to be happy no matter what. If no one knows how to comfort you then comfort myself la!!! Watch porn and masturbate! Hahaha! 

No one will ever have the rights to make me unhappy anymore. I'm my own man.

It will be me against the world!!

Les miserables

Why do I always ends up alone when I'm miserable?

........

Little little things

It's funny how little little things affects your mood. I guess my people skills are abit poor. Well well gotta stop sulking and be better

But it still sucks!! 

I want to be your lover not a family member

i want you to know you mean the world to me
i hope one day you'll understand and learn to love me just as much

sometimes i wish i could just hug you and kiss you on the forehead without you moving away
sometimes i wish you would misses me just as much
sometimes i wish you could just give in and just make my day
sometimes i wish if you could just give me a big hug and just lie on my shoulder
sometimes i wish if you could look me in the eyes, say i love you and kisses me softly
sometimes i wish if we could just spend half a day just hugging each other to sleep
sometimes i wish if we could be more passionate about each other

Sometimes I wish if you could accompany me to do stuff cos i don't like being alone
sometimes i wish is just us against the world


sometimes i wish if we could just go back to how we started when i felt i meant the world to you.....

signing off with a prayer!