kemeja t and 2010

I've been spending a lot of time with family and old friends lately..in fact i spent my new year eve at home. Many friends were rather surprised that I rejected their invitations to their parties (btw, thank you all so so much for your invitations)

I, myself was kinda surprised by my decision to stay home. Surprisingly, i didn't felt pathetic at all, in fact I had a great night! Guess i just needed some time on my own to ponder upon things that I've done in 2009.

2009 was rough! I didn't enjoyed it a bit! i'm really glad it ended and looking forward to new challenges in 2010. I kinda drifted around for the whole of 2009 with no accomplishments whatsoever!

What have i learned from 2009? ....."OBSESSION is a deadly game!"

I was too obsessed with my new found love and I've neglected everything. I just wanted to love her and gave her everything. Slowly, obsession turned me into someone different. All that i could think off..was her. I thought i found my soulmate. I wouldn't put the blame as me myself have to suffer the consequences of my own doings. Things went on just fine till i lost my job.

I landed myself in loads of debts with no stable income. I was depressed everyday wei! I had my first taste of poverty...well ok ok poverty might be too strong of a word but still...I was as broke as BROKE can be! i didn't even have money to eat!!! i was being really immature and lost all senses of directions.

When i thought things were getting better when i got myself a job in the real estate industry. She left me! i was devastated and it took me like FOREVER to get over her. In fact i stil think of her once in a while. It was even worse when all your mate is around you! i didn't have anyone to turn to at that time! It was really really hard....anyway i managed to pull thru and get on with life!

i learned a great deal out of this mess. Too much of something will do you no good! it changes you. It will alter your perceptions and your state of mind. You loses control. I was not myself then.

Life is all about balance..and standing firm on your principles!

I hope 2010 will be a great one and things are already looking kinda handsome!

an opportunity to fulfill my dream.......